day 43: evil aunt flo

i no longer have to worry my purty lil head. uninvited guest aunt flo came a-knocking in my morning slumber. i woke up to a stained panty and bolster. :S that's a *first* - period sans the excruciating cramps.

hubby is clearly disappointed but i'm too numb to feel that way. now my mind is in shambles trying to figure out what this means to dh and me. does this necessitate that trip to the fertility clinic? five months of fruitless trying is hardly an emergency, but with our circumstances (which is highly personal), perhaps it is prudent to do so. god i'm so dreading this.

dh's coming overseas trip would mean no active TTC this month, since he won't be around during O. might as well. i need the break.

today's lesson learnt: if the stick says negative, you'd better believe it, baby.